Archive for August, 2012

Lack of Passion

It’s strange to me how you could have so much love and passion for something and then years later it hardly interests you at all.  Or maybe it’s the thought that interests you but you can’t get anything done with that old talent of yours.

Uhg.

I used to love writing music, but the last several years have been the slowest in writing anything new.  When I come up with some new material it is short and I get stuck past a few bars or just a minute worth of music.  It’s frustrating.  I thought I would make a living writing music but I’m really unsure at this point.  I would like to have something else I enjoy as a moneymaker, but I just haven’t found anything.  Perhaps when I move to Atlanta…perhaps not.

At least I’m getting away soon…take a short break and maybe stumble across something.  My life needs meaning and purpose.  I like to be productive.  Right now I mainly lack passion.

There are a number of things that are bothering me right now, but I usually throw them to the side lest I be consumed with something I usually have little control over OR something I fucked up in the past that I have to deal with responsibly now.

Finding Words to Write

I would really love to get back into blogging, but it seems that I am just having a hard time sitting down and writing.  It’s just not coming to me.  I’m not sure why.  One of the ideas I had for my Music/Professional blog was to write about David Archuleta but I’m not really sure what I would say.  It’s really hard to explain how his music affects me.

So, I guess I’m going to go home and try to write a little bit of piano music.  Last week I wrote six bars which is more then I have done in about a year.  I usually produce a lot more of what I enjoy…which is composing as well as some blogging…but I’m at blank.

-J.P.