Posts tagged ‘control’

Why Not Take All of Me?

It was nice to have the rain beating down on me today as I rode my bike around early this morning.  I was angry and wanted to get rid of some of the responsibilities that I had laid upon myself.  What I found is that I am just one person and I can not do everything on my own.  I have a be strong enough to accept help and then go with that help as willingly as possible.  It can be hard at times but I finally think I have come to a nice place.  A place where I can be myself and learn and grow into the person I wish to become.

I often think of the many great things I can do with my life, but probably the best piece of advice I received recently was that I need to live just one day at a time.  It’s time to slow down and enjoy life for all the simple beauties that it possesses.

Life is good…and so is pizza.

-J.P. Dennis

Changed

Dear Reader,

It always amazes me how I offer people advice over and over when I know they don’t want it.  I really want to help some people even when I do not have the control over my life that I wish I had.  And yet again and again, I try to reach out because I think that something might be better or really help.  I am so convinced.  Why is that?  Even if I was right…it does not matter because you can not force the human mind.  So why do I keep trying?  If I have something to say then I need to do it once and leave it at that.

It’s time to let it go.  I am the master of my fate and no one else.  I suppose I could turn this blog around on myself as well by stating that when it comes down to it I make my own decisions and I go against other people’s thoughts and ideas of what is “best for me”.  So, there you go.  I’m a wild card.  I can not expect someone to change for me if I am not willing to change for them.

So, I guess today I am changed…maybe just a little.  For better or worse.

Sincerely,

J.P.

“In places no one will find…all your feelings so deep inside.”