It was nice to have the rain beating down on me today as I rode my bike around early this morning. I was angry and wanted to get rid of some of the responsibilities that I had laid upon myself. What I found is that I am just one person and I can not do everything on my own. I have a be strong enough to accept help and then go with that help as willingly as possible. It can be hard at times but I finally think I have come to a nice place. A place where I can be myself and learn and grow into the person I wish to become.
I often think of the many great things I can do with my life, but probably the best piece of advice I received recently was that I need to live just one day at a time. It’s time to slow down and enjoy life for all the simple beauties that it possesses.
Life is good…and so is pizza.
It always amazes me how I offer people advice over and over when I know they don’t want it. I really want to help some people even when I do not have the control over my life that I wish I had. And yet again and again, I try to reach out because I think that something might be better or really help. I am so convinced. Why is that? Even if I was right…it does not matter because you can not force the human mind. So why do I keep trying? If I have something to say then I need to do it once and leave it at that.
It’s time to let it go. I am the master of my fate and no one else. I suppose I could turn this blog around on myself as well by stating that when it comes down to it I make my own decisions and I go against other people’s thoughts and ideas of what is “best for me”. So, there you go. I’m a wild card. I can not expect someone to change for me if I am not willing to change for them.
So, I guess today I am changed…maybe just a little. For better or worse.
“In places no one will find…all your feelings so deep inside.”