It was nice to have the rain beating down on me today as I rode my bike around early this morning. I was angry and wanted to get rid of some of the responsibilities that I had laid upon myself. What I found is that I am just one person and I can not do everything on my own. I have a be strong enough to accept help and then go with that help as willingly as possible. It can be hard at times but I finally think I have come to a nice place. A place where I can be myself and learn and grow into the person I wish to become.
I often think of the many great things I can do with my life, but probably the best piece of advice I received recently was that I need to live just one day at a time. It’s time to slow down and enjoy life for all the simple beauties that it possesses.
Life is good…and so is pizza.
Hello There! Happy October!
Life has actually been really quite good for me recently. Sure, there have been a few bumps but I feel I am arriving at a “Good Place”. It’s seems that solutions to all of my questions and problems are now being manifested for the simple reason that I finally let some stress go and I’m starting to treat myself a little better.
I get concerned about my actions and words at times. This past year I started a lot of different projects and was going in a lot of different directions, but that is okay because honestly I was just trying to make some money. Money to support myself, get out of debt, and maybe help some friends along the way. Money is such a fickle thing and there are times I put a lot of emphasis on it and other times that I do not. For me, the most important thing is the well being of my family and friends. (That includes me.)
I would say generally I am a happy person but I do take things too serious and let situations overwelm me. This past week I let an English paper overwhelm me with so with much stress that I cracked because I just could not get my finger around it. When I turned it in it was far from completion but I found out I was going to have the chance to rewrite it. I was happy about that but I was also not happy that I had let myself get so consumed because I really wanted to make a good grade. During that same class period my teacher gave us our midterm grades and I had a A-. (And here I am about to stroke out over grades…uh!)
One of my goals in life is to be happy with what I get done no matter what my grade is and no matter what other people think of the quality of my work. I want to be content and stress less…so that is what I am going to do. That is why the last 2 days have been SO WONDERFUL. I accept the perfectionist I am and I also accept the slow and steady pace of my work.
“I don’t know what I’m doing here. How I landed in this space, but it’s a good place.” – Good Place by David Archuleta