Hello There! Happy October!
Life has actually been really quite good for me recently. Sure, there have been a few bumps but I feel I am arriving at a “Good Place”. It’s seems that solutions to all of my questions and problems are now being manifested for the simple reason that I finally let some stress go and I’m starting to treat myself a little better.
I get concerned about my actions and words at times. This past year I started a lot of different projects and was going in a lot of different directions, but that is okay because honestly I was just trying to make some money. Money to support myself, get out of debt, and maybe help some friends along the way. Money is such a fickle thing and there are times I put a lot of emphasis on it and other times that I do not. For me, the most important thing is the well being of my family and friends. (That includes me.)
I would say generally I am a happy person but I do take things too serious and let situations overwelm me. This past week I let an English paper overwhelm me with so with much stress that I cracked because I just could not get my finger around it. When I turned it in it was far from completion but I found out I was going to have the chance to rewrite it. I was happy about that but I was also not happy that I had let myself get so consumed because I really wanted to make a good grade. During that same class period my teacher gave us our midterm grades and I had a A-. (And here I am about to stroke out over grades…uh!)
One of my goals in life is to be happy with what I get done no matter what my grade is and no matter what other people think of the quality of my work. I want to be content and stress less…so that is what I am going to do. That is why the last 2 days have been SO WONDERFUL. I accept the perfectionist I am and I also accept the slow and steady pace of my work.
“I don’t know what I’m doing here. How I landed in this space, but it’s a good place.” – Good Place by David Archuleta